January 2009
"why do you do this to yourself?"
“why do you do this to yourself? you say something that you KNOW is gonna piss her off, then you get mad that SHES mad”-misha
i dont know why i do this to myself to be honest. i think its because i want a reaction from her. i want her to show emotion towards me. any kind of emotion, just so that i know she cares. the easiest emotion i couod get out of her is anger, so i guess i...
“It was embarassing how my world suddenly seemed empty of everything but...”
cum is thicker than blood.
this is going to be a cowritten blog,
everything in italics is mishela, everything else; is me. and now we begin:
i havent been speaking to my sister for two days now. because i got into an argument with her over fred which may i add i am very much right. but she thinks we are all conspiring against her. which is rather pathetic. im just trying to protect her. shit.
well you know...
“With a fire in my bones and the sweet taste of kerosene; I get lost in the...”
why the fuck didn't i know about the L Word being...
Lmao im so mad!
apparently 2 episodes have gone by without me knowing.
im catching up now.
wtf harvey milk you’re so unreliable!
id expect you faggots and you dykes should have filled me in by now.
goddamn.
jizzy
YOU’RE THE ONE WITH THE BOYFRIEND
PROSTITUTE!
lmao and hey
she does invite it
but thats never gonna go no whereeeeezz
JIZZY
lmfao you’re a dick i didnt realize you wrote that till just now.
and hey,
she doesnt like me like that anymore.
that ‘ship has sailed’.
she already knows waddap!!!
ya digg?!
who would win: charro or herman lee?
that is the best question anyone has ever asked me.
just in case you don’t know who they are. charro is a flaminco guitarist who fucking shreds like a beast with like long ass nails! and of course, herman lee is the chinese guitarist of DragonForce.
Of course,
when you first think of this, you think: ‘fuck, herman would haul ass’.
but lets think of this from an actual...
jizzy
lmao
so what if i am?
pftt.
jizzy
how the FUCK are you even concious?
you should be sleeping.
or dead.
and its a well known fact.
im not too confident.
im just AWARE.
jizzy
indeed, i am.
but a fagg that you TOTALLY digg.
and yeah,
i popped madd advil and motrin and excerdrin.
I AINT PLAYIN NO GAMES!
“but i know if i wait in the end, she’ll fill me with her glow again-...”
a block is boring, where the fuck is lizbeth!
this whore is always leaving me. im stuck here listening to these niggas talking about trannies and STDs.
apparently, black and spanish trannies are more likely to get STDs because they’re ‘low class’ and their customers force them to let them hit it raw! Also, asians are the high class tranny whore because they do it in hotels.. not in alleyways and back seats like latinos and...
mishela is making us watch constantine..
=|
i really just fucking hate this movie. and i hate having to sit here and watch it.
it does nothing for me, and it annoys me like hell.
plus im like fiening for a cigarette and theres no nicatine.
anywhere.
FUCK.
so now im gonna go look at neks posts with people smoking and breathe in deep pretending im smoking.
keanu reeves makes me want to kill myself.
he fucking annoys me.
i hate sundays.
all i do is procrastinate on what i SHOULD be doing for tomorrow,
but in reality, im not gonna do it. ever.
luckily, i had no dreams.
its probably because i didnt have milk and because i was so damn tired.
whatever the reason;
im glad.
oatmeal raisin cookies = fucking weird dreams.
Its 5 AM
and i am now preparing to go to bed.
im concerned because i had julius’s ‘fucked up dream cookies’
i thought he was kidding,
i had one and dreamt i was in a valley in peru chasing an all white llama with rainbow rings around its eyes
o_O
tonight,
i had like 4 cookies.
im deeply concerned about my mental health after tonight.
especially considering all the...
im mad bored.
Im supposed to go on a rampage with litzy but we all now that puta isn’t gonna wake up till like 4 lol
vamos a ver.
pero yo quiero estar en la calle a las dos. no me gusta estar en las casa en los fin de semanas )=
being student council vice president has its...
Apparently one of them is vacation days? as yu know from my previous blog; i didnt attend school today but my mom dragged me to the pta/student council meeting anyway. so lmao the principal told the atendence chick to change my absencey and make it say i was in school today! nolan loves me.
also,
the attendence lady is ohdee preggo so shes taking her maternity leave starting monday and guess...
so about the trannies & pregos.
lets start with the trannies.
the worst decision i ever made in my life was to date a tranny. all the emotional ups and downs of an actual girl, plus all the drama and bochinche of a gay guy. =| she is the most annoying thing i’ve ever seen, and shes so fake. i was really digging her when we were together im not gonna lie, but wow. shes terrible. her and her clique are the fakest sets of...
stomach ulsers are incredibly annoying.
Im sitting on my bathroom floor, vomiting every so often, and feeling like complete andx total shit. ive been eating fine so why wont it just go the fuck away?
i really hate this shit.
it interferes with school, sometimes i cant go cos im throwing up my life. it clashings with my social life cos at times i feel so shitty that i can barely move.
i really hate this. i regret ever drinking.
tell me this shit aint bumpin?!
i cant stand trannies or preggos.
I’ll elaborate on this later.
but boy do i feel strongly about this topic
hotasssauce:
shes leaving again; GREAT.
i really cant stand it when she does that to me; fucking lie saying hes going to pay for you when we all fucking know hes fucking poor out of his mind. waste more fucking money put us in bad situations as in i cant buy food for lunch and go certain places with my friends because you want to go and have your little fucking get away vacations with your...
lmao oh andddddddd
its cute that you read my shit (;
yeah,
you.
i feel if i dont have school; no one should have...
one thing i hate is waking up early for school, another thing i hate more than that, is when i dont have school; but everyone has work. & im stuck home ohdee fucking bored because everyone is at work.
=|
my friends who don’t have school too, live mad fucking deep! my glendale kids, i haven’t hung out with them in years & i think it would be rather awkward if i called rough...
do i have a hoodrat magnet on me somewhere that i...
Where are all the decent girls in new york city? i mean, the gay ones. unfortunetly, all the nice, not ghetto, cute girls… are straight. hooooray. all the girls i talk to or start talking to (except jizzy, too bad that didnt work out..) are undercover hoodrats. i dont see i coming it just sneaks up on you. who knew being hood comes with super sneaky powers?
for example, i picked up this...
i love her to death; i do.
But she could be a real fucking dick. shes so loose with her words. lol she called me a stupid fuck, that really bothered me. idc, i never say shit like that to her. im not being dramatic, but sometimes i really wish i never met her.
only because i feel then id have some what of a chance of being happy. shes ruined that for me. i dont really put effort into anything relationship wise cos i dont...
i be chillin wit chefs
when i had mishelas food, it was as if jesus came into my mouth.
im never ACTUALLY going to drop out, duh.
but,
a girl can dream, right?
lol yeah its fucking freezing,
RECAP:
i woke up at 6:45 like i always do, i decided to shut my eyes and take a mini nap till 7:05…. but when i woke up it was 7:35 and im usually out the door by 7:30 so i said FUCK IT and i went back to sleep and came to the conclusion im going in at b block.
i got up at 8:30 and got ready mad slow while i was dancing...
by the way, check out the irony.
i posted a blog about wanting to drop out;
IN MY MATH CLASS.
which is really just. OH HERES A LAPTOP AND GO ONLINE.
i've come to the conclusion; i really wanna drop...
i was on the bus on my way to school (mind you this is at like 9 30 cos i didnt want to go to school in the first place) and i realized; i want to drop out. school is too easy, theres no challenge and no point of interest to make me wanna go. the only reason i actually come is for lizzy so we dont suffer alone. harvey milk is more of a LETS JUST FUCK AROUND school till regents come and you...
being sick blows monkey dick.
Im like dying. i feel like i have some terminal disease thats gonna kill me any second now. lizzy, its just irony! im not purposely abandoning you in school. lucky for me, i got yu back for leaving me yesterday.
i realized i have no friends in school, other than lizzy. dont get me wrong, im cool with everyone; but i dont chill with any of them. its annoying when im alone in school but i like it....
i hate tuesdays, because my test prep class is...
Orville: the subject of this passage is to secure the safety of pedestrians and slow down cars.
Anthony: what are pedestrians?
Me: .....are you fucking kidding?
Orville: sister, im going to have to disagree with yr choice of words but anthony... ARE you kidding?
Anthony: no.
Me: good to know im in the special ed class.
it's 'no shade'.
gay people blow my mind sometimes. what the fuck does NO SHADE accomplish. for instance, let me use it in a sentence: you’re mad ugly, no shade.
what?! is that supposed to lighten the insult? no shade its like the gay version of NO OFFENSE except they use it to the extreme and it annoys the fuck out of me. gay ‘lingo’ is really just ridiculous. lets have a homo-vocab lesson:
...
stomping the yard with these bad boys!
hotasssauce:
STRAIGHT NAZI STYLE! since im staying at my dads and my bootsies were finally delivered i told my momma to bring em to her job in the morning to i can pick em up since i had to take her her phone anyway.
i soo put them bad boys on! i walked my ass to school all jolly second period with my nazi boots! i cant wait to mess these babies up!
yeah they look mad homo.
pftt i...
oh really?
Bowling Alley Employee: Can you keep the cursing down sir? There are ladies here.
(waits till the employee walks away)
Tourettes Guy: ....THERE ARE LADIES EVERYWHERE, ASSHOLE!
why is everyone so set on finding the unfound?...
i feel like everyones running in circles trying to find something that will make them feel better about their lives. some people think love is a figment of the imagination; or better yet something that doesnt even exist. i think it does, but not when you turn the world upside down looking for it. whats worse is when you find someone, and you convince yrself that you’re in love. that really...
